choices.

life is full of them.

i recently made the hardest one of my life.

Stay in California. or. Move to Utah.

.........................Here I sit in Provo, Utah.


This was the first decision i've made in life where i was completely and utterly torn. My heart wanted to stay in California....but my brain told me to move back here. It just made sense. now that i'm here? i'm ready to leave again....but that stupid bachelor's degree is standing in the way.

I made the move based on faith. and believe me....i'm putting a lot of faith in this decision because it definitely was not what i wanted.

so what exactly am i doing here? studying to become a high school history teacher. This was my original intended major, and i kinda strayed away from it for a while..... but now that i'm back in the groove i feel like i've made the right decision for my life. In the 2 weeks i've been back at BYU i'm motivated and actually learning things. shocking, i know. I have the end in mind....even though it could be as far as 2 years away...and it's keeping me going.

I moved into a condo in provo with complete strangers instead of moving back home with my parents. Something i vowed i would never do.....yet here i am. i'm growing up a little bit i think. kind of scary. I'm hoping this new view-point helps keep me motivated.

I left behind so many things in California.... A job with a promising future, family, best friends, delicious food..............


it'll all be worth it........right?